am ur friend?

been busying my damn ass off for the past week....

okie okie... it's actually my laziness that prevented me from updating, i admit..haha..

supposingly i should be having cuppas wif dearie PP 2nite but she gave me a call late tiz afternoon and asking me whether if i''ll be willing to join her and another colleague of hers for wines later in the evening.. and eventually, this li'l wine party would be at my competitor's wine bar (how ironic, i'll be having wine party at my competitor's place whereby i should hav suggested to have them gather up at the restaurant nex to my wine shop!), one of our buddy are currently working there (meaning, my buddy = my competitor! HAHA!) , and he's offered to treat us a nice bottle.. so there.. should i decline? of cuz not! ended up, we decided to give it a go, as deearie PP's colleague (namely Summer Angel..hehe) was supposed to meet with her Spanish net friend at Oasis after our wine party.. so that's our plan.. to have a bottle of wine at "D****O" b4 heading to the Oasis to meet up wif the Spanish guy..

i headed straight to "D****O" after i finished work, selected the bottle and sat there, waited for dearie PP and her frens for an hour! reason: they lost their way..oh my.. when they arrived, it's almost 11.30pm..

okie.. we finished the whole bottle and then wut? we went to Oasis to meet Summer Angel's Spanish guy but when we reached there, guess wut? He's actually ready to take leave and heading towards "the Loft" with his frens.. WTF.. we wanted to join him..but 3 of us gotta work 2moro..(plus, i was not dressed up!).. then wut? Summer Angel made up her mind to let him go and they made some promises to meet up again.. so at last, we settled ourselves for another jug of beer at the Oasis.. better than nothing larr..

something had been triggering my thoughts lately, and it's about net friendship... i believe most of net surfer's freak like us should have befriended some online friends, be it the same sex or the opposite... but how many of them have you actually met before? and should it be advisable to meet with someone that you got to know through internet chat room? or MSn or ICQ? or wutever... ? is it trustable? this has been the cheesy topic that me and dearie PP had been discussing about lately.. she had been thinking about meeting up wif one of her net fren and i'm encouraging her to go for it.. wut harm will it do anyway, wif meeting up wif ur net fren, over a cuppa, rite? like wut i've seen Summer Angel 2nite, she got her guts to meet up wif her Spanish net guy for the first time, and yes, she's nervous..but she did it.. and she's happy bout it! and it's satifying to see her excitement.. becuz she really deserves it.. she got the gutsy power..
me? errrrmmmm... i don't think i could it.. uhh-uhh.. not me.. it worries me when i think of it.. one thing that's bugging me the most is ... the first impression.. first appearance.... my appearance, to be honest... come to think of it, i'm worried of wut the other party would think of me for the first time.. will they see the real me to be very different from the me they knew on the net, comparatively? and would they be disappointed when i'm not wut they expected me to be? yes, it's true that we saw each other pic beforehand, but things might turn out to be wrong from each other expectations.. and then wut? will be stucked in a real awkward and somewhat, embarassing situation then, won't i?
that's wut i think.. i may be wrong, i'm not sure.. anyways..

okie.. am getting off now..am tired.. am drunk.. am gonna sleep now.. ciao!

GOAL!!

AHN Jung-Hwan & LEE Chun-soo: credits goes to them for the Korean team's victory!

GOAL! Korea Kicks! yea.. juz finished watching the match between Kor v. Tog.. was able to perform my little victory dance in full throttle for Korea! it was a good match.. after the losing of Japan to the Aussie team yesterday, Korea am capable to bring up the "chi" for us Asian! we may not be able to be the BIG winner for the Worldcup at the moment, but at least we proved to the world that Asian are BIG players too! let's hope Japan will make it for their coming match on the 18th..way to go!

Victory with you, Japan...GANBADE!!!!

the match today of Japan vs. Australia was really disappointing! the first half was excellent wif Japan scoring their 1st goal by Nakamura..(thousands of the blue team's fans screamed their heads off in the arena!) i was shouting wif joy and doing the victory dance when the Japan team hit their goal! Kawaguchi Yoshikatsu -- he's the best goal keeper ever, had been his admirer since the worldcup in 1998.. his performance just now was outstanding, managed to defence all the goal attempts from the Aussies.. untill, the second half kicked in.. well.. all i would say was a bit of luck for the Aussies, with their scoring of 3 goals in the last 8 mins.. WTF.. too bad for the Nihon team!
nevermind that, Japan team, we go by you! Victory to you for the next match on the 18th! GANBADE ne! (especially to Kawaguchi, he's juz damn gorgeaous, ain't he..sigh...)

<--Japan team with Kawaguchi leading the team..
the 1st goal -->
















<--- Kawaguchi in action.. sigh..luv him!

好想你！

with regard to my previous post, my mood is on the lower scale, turning downhill minutes by minutes.. but then, i was chatting with one of my dearest ji mui last nite.. she's my most precious darling, which is currently working in Swiss.. ohhh.. how i missed her..! i've been feeling so pathetic lately and seeing her popped up in my MSN has made me nearly burst into tears.. we managed only to chat for half an hour as it was almost 3.30am when she went online and i am supposed to work the next day.. but i didnt care and we ended up chatting till the wee hours of 4.30am!

i felt so much better after chatting wif her..she has been one of the most supportive person in my life, she has given me the bestest friendship i could ask for! apparently, she will be coming back to KL in July! although it will juz be a 2 weeks holidayz for her, it meant a millions worth of joy for me.. i can't wait to see her again..
we will be going out and have funs together again.. going places, yum cha, lovely bi-atching sessions, trying to catch things up wif each other again.. i miss her so much! hope i can see her real soon.. i miss you my darling! luv ya to the max!

the consequence: overslept and late for work.. lucky me my boss was not around.. =þ
ermm..or maybe i should spend less time blogging till late into the nite..

学这。。。

down.. i feel so down for the whole week. i dunno why.. but i'm feeling very lonely..
had had lunch wif one of my ex-lecturer on Wednesday.. that was good, since he gave some sort of new inspirations to my perspective on LIFE...

i feel sorta losing self confidence day by day, and i'm really afraid.. it scared the hell out of me.. cuz tiz is the least that i could feel insufficient during the years in college.... i was bold, i was egoistic, i used to walk wif head held high, each step taken wif pride..
and now, i walk wif my head looking down, quicken my steps most of the time juz to reach the destination sooner so that i could be as invisible as possible.. not noticeable at all.. hoping that i could be blend into the surroundings.. couldn't be seen.. by other passers-by.. imagine, one of my regular customer who alwiz sees me at VC, asked me the other day, why i'm alwiz walking like yeepa-yeepa-speedy gonzales, wif the head hung low.. never lifted my head even once..
i juz smiled at him and said, "that's me"..
so speaking, i don't understand why i became the person that i am now, i do not know how to analyse anymore, i juz feel so tired.. to make matter worse, i start comparing other ppl with myself.. i compared myself, of wut i have achieved right now, with wut those of my friends, ex-classmates, ex-colleagues, basically everyone around.. possesed. Some how or rather, i find that, they are sure to have succeeded something that is better than me... be it their career, their monthly income, their relationship..or .. whatsoever..
it pricks me real hard when i realized that there is still so much more that i have left out in my life.. things that still yet to be in my possession, things that still yet to be achieved, dreams that are yet to materialize...by me. so you see, that worsen my now already chaotic situation..

but since the lunch session wif my ex-lecturer, it does seems to help cheering me up a bit, things that he told me seems to be working its way into my head,and it's telling me that i could actually do more than i believe i could... that it's the journey that counts, not the destiny.. there will be never be an end, if there isn't any commencing point. this has left much for me to ponder upon..hmmm...i understand that i am in a journey now... and it's no easy path ahead.. but that doesn't refrain me from taking another step on.. all i need is a li'l support..from dear ones, and that is a thing that never lacks in my life..not now, not ever..

therefore: i am learning all over again. soon, i will likely to summon back all my confidence, my self-worth, my self-prospect and most of all, my attitude!
next time around, i will walk holding my head high, nose upright and wif pride. again.

我也不想这样。。。

all of a sudden, i feel damn bored~! not that i had been leading an exciting life for the past few years..life has been monotonous since the end of my tertiery education, a.k.a = when working life budged in!

okie, maybe i hadn't notice it right away due to all the excitement i was experiencing in coping myself for the real adulthood, independence and purely, the responsibility of having my own life.. now, after 3 years of struggling, i managed to have a secured job, in a so-so company, with a so-so monthly income that's enuff for my car monthly instalment, credit card debts and living expences (which is getting more and more freakingly unmanageable!!)...the left-over, barely 'nuff for me to survive on shopping spree and regular beauty regimen, don't even mention about savings!

in the midst of financial desperation, i realized lately that besides working, i don't have much entertainment.. not much enjoyment, i would say..
besides having cuppas (bi-atching session, literally speaking..) with my close buddies, there's isn't much more to tell about my life.. work work work, cuppas cuppas cuppas... sleep sleep sleep, work work work, cuppas cuppas cuppas..
no dates, no quality of life, nothing...

i'm a totally different 'Jamy' now compared to the 'Jamy' during the college dayz..okie, i know it's kinda ridiculous to make comparison between then and now, since i was so young during those times (not that i'm croaked-bone-old by now) and that life should mellow down a bit as you grow older but; hey..i'm still in my 20's, for God sake! and i've gone through half of my 20's now, imagine, another 5 damn years and i'll hit the big "three O"... tsk*tsk*.. and i'm still sitting here, updating my blog while i should be out there having all the fun that girls in their 20's should be having..partying like craze, playing big time, flirting, seeing the worlds 'round.. but instead.. i've been staying at home, moping around and doing nothing, juz zZzZZz for the weekends.. me feeling like a slob!

help needed! i'm dying to get a life! dying to get something for me to obssess about.. dying to get to do wut i should be doing in my peak time! dying to get back my confidence...

i need something i can look forward to..in life!

feeling rite now: 觉得生活很空白。。。

Merril Bainbridge: The Garden

this is one of my favs album during my teen days.. but i lost this cd some time ago and i dunno where it went! boohoo!

but thanks to www.limewire.com , am able to download all the songs from that album. I really like Merril's songs but it's so unfortunate that she couldn't make it big time after her first album! shame on that. Hope she will emerge to fame again soon!

Wonders..

The black images are actually the shadows.. the white ones are the real camels. This picture was taken from upper view down..

One of my friend forwarded this pic to me.. it's way too cool! I... appreciates world wonders.. do you?

(click for a larger view of image)

missing...from my MSN =(

I had been waiting for "someone" to pop up in my MSN.. and it had been days since we last chatted.. everytime I waited for this "someone" to say something 1st.. and apparently, this "someone" didn't. And when I finally managed to gather up all my nerves to say 'Hi".. this "someone" went offline.. sob*sob.. I'm so pathetic..

Had not been seeing this "someone" online since yesterday, and already, I'm feeling not rite.. my god, I'm going nuts, if not out of my mind.. one way or the other!

Pure Disguise, spells: D.I.S.G.U.S.T.I.N.G.

I have recently discovered that there are some ppl who like to avoid, or I might say, deny their own past.. or their origin.. or who they really are... wutever you might call it...

It seems to these ppl that they finally achieved wut they wanted to be all along.. a high class socielite, with the right kind of trendy lifestyle and mingling with the ever "IN" groups of friend.. oh my, they think they are..

And in the process of achieving this life-long dream... they forget who they are... some tries too hard, some lied and some.. well, some of them juz made up stories to allow themselves to be recognized as a well-behaved, well-mannered and well-groomed persona! And talking about personality.. they like to brag.. to show-offs, literally... and for the purpose of what? To upgrade their reputation, of course! heaven forbid!

They despise ppl and things from the past that might bring shame or might disrepute their "flawless" image and will start using their camouflage skills to shade themselves, for instance, disregard his/her own alma mater just because it happens to be not a famous international institution.. Or maybe even avoiding speaking of the ex-classmates/schoolmates in front of those "always-with-great-achievements-and-we-are-the-best" groups of friends, so that these ppl won't have a clue that he/she grew up with such individuals from such disreputable school..On the contrary, will alwiz refer this him/her as a petty cute li'l étudiente de l'école populaire! And so speaking, that's where all the lies started..

It's amazing that I happened to discovered one of these ppl is someone I knew from my schooling days.. haha.. so much for the efforts to make up for her image, I am here to uncover her true self, to burst her bubbles, to tell the truth and nothing but the truth of her disguise.. I am undercover PC520...

Conclusion: be who u are.. one must not be ashamed of ur past.. it doesn't matter where a person came from, it's the heart and sincerity that matters the most.. do not look down on others, they may not seem to be good enuff for you, but you're never sure if you are good enuff urself..

Vinexpo Hong Kong

With Noelle @ Gunderloch booth, Vinexpo HK

View from my room, Majestic Hotel, Nathan Rd. Kowloon

Vinexpo Hong Kong 2006 (22-25 May)

Gosh.. been ages since the last entry... it was a real damn hectic period for the past month! Had had a Spanish wine dinner function on the 20th of May, and Italian wine dinner on the 30th and had had another Italian wine reception 2 days ago..! freakin' damn tired to the bones! =(

In between, I was lucky enuff to be at the Vinexpo 2006, Hong Kong (22nd - 25th May) with my asst. manager and another regular customer of ours.. well, there wasn't much time for my shoppping spree, but still... I managed to grab some great stuffs from the trip... hehe.. wut else is there to do in HK besides eating and shopping.. huh? tell me..

Things grabbed: clothes! shoes! bags! Yuen Long "Lou Poh Beng"and aji ichiban munchies from HKIA b4 boarding the flight back to KL.. haha!





Best things eaten: Steamed egg whites with double layered milk skin (my favs..) Pineapple bun.. Curry fishballs! Beef noddles.. Baked Lobsters in Lamma Island... Braised Pork from the chinese restaurant in Conrad Hotel.

Consequences from the trip: Was down with flu and sore throat... *duhh**

Anyways, it was an awesome trip.. Will plan another personal holiday there again soon for another shopping rendez-vous!