我也不想这样。。。

all of a sudden, i feel damn bored~! not that i had been leading an exciting life for the past few years..life has been monotonous since the end of my tertiery education, a.k.a = when working life budged in!

okie, maybe i hadn't notice it right away due to all the excitement i was experiencing in coping myself for the real adulthood, independence and purely, the responsibility of having my own life.. now, after 3 years of struggling, i managed to have a secured job, in a so-so company, with a so-so monthly income that's enuff for my car monthly instalment, credit card debts and living expences (which is getting more and more freakingly unmanageable!!)...the left-over, barely 'nuff for me to survive on shopping spree and regular beauty regimen, don't even mention about savings!

in the midst of financial desperation, i realized lately that besides working, i don't have much entertainment.. not much enjoyment, i would say..
besides having cuppas (bi-atching session, literally speaking..) with my close buddies, there's isn't much more to tell about my life.. work work work, cuppas cuppas cuppas... sleep sleep sleep, work work work, cuppas cuppas cuppas..
no dates, no quality of life, nothing...

i'm a totally different 'Jamy' now compared to the 'Jamy' during the college dayz..okie, i know it's kinda ridiculous to make comparison between then and now, since i was so young during those times (not that i'm croaked-bone-old by now) and that life should mellow down a bit as you grow older but; hey..i'm still in my 20's, for God sake! and i've gone through half of my 20's now, imagine, another 5 damn years and i'll hit the big "three O"... tsk*tsk*.. and i'm still sitting here, updating my blog while i should be out there having all the fun that girls in their 20's should be having..partying like craze, playing big time, flirting, seeing the worlds 'round.. but instead.. i've been staying at home, moping around and doing nothing, juz zZzZZz for the weekends.. me feeling like a slob!

help needed! i'm dying to get a life! dying to get something for me to obssess about.. dying to get to do wut i should be doing in my peak time! dying to get back my confidence...

i need something i can look forward to..in life!

feeling rite now: 觉得生活很空白。。。